I don't think so. I think it means that both of us need to work harder to make sure our marriage last. In the end, the marriage ends up stronger and we end up closer because of what we've overcome -- Together.
Making Big Decisions and Managing DetailsThe honest truth of it is that when you have a special-needs kid, there's added stress in your life and in your marriage. From the very start when you realize there may be an issue, you face additional struggles than you normally would trying decide what's best for your child. There are just so many more unknowns and things TO decide.
That makes being on the same page as your spouse harder. A and I make big decisions together, like whether or not M2 needed to do speech therapy and when to start, if she should be evaluated for autism, if we should get an aide and what next steps to take. I handle the details, such as figuring out where to get therapy, how to get her evaluated, fighting red tape, and figuring out what the possible next steps even are.
I check in with A to let him know what's going on. His opinion is important so I ask what he thinks as as we go. I'm the one who is home with the kids, so took on detail management by default. Plus, otherwise, I'd be driving A nuts with questions, getting in the way. I need to be in control of the situation, while A is able to step back and let me handle things without going nuts.
I've found that when you've both wrapped up in the minutia, there's much more of a chance to butt heads, disagree, get even more confused and get more frustrated with the situation -- and each other. When one person is leading, you're both on board and the other person is offering support, things tend to go more smoothly.
Saying Good-Bye to Time AloneThe time alone that you fight to get once kids are in the picture becomes even more impossible when one of your children is special needs. We can't just leave M2 and B with any babysitter to go out for the evening -- or even an hour. Two people who are very familiar with our situation need to be on hand for babysitting duty.
The blunt truth is that there are only two sets of people whom we trust to leave alone with the kids. (Or is it people we'd trust the kids to be alone with? Hmm.) Neither set lives remotely close to us (we're talking states away here). That leaves us grabbing time out alone about twice a year for a few hours. The rest of the time, we have to get creative. To make our marriage work, we've accepted this is how it is. We make the best of the situation since there's nothing we can do about it. The time we do get is even more special because it is so rare. We appreciate it even more.
Frustration and CommunicationHaving kids exacerbates usual marriage issues. Little things grate on your nerves much more when you've spent the day with fussy, screaming kids who won't listen or are having a sensory meltdown. Small problems seem so much bigger when you're battling to get your child what she needs at the same time. Big problems can seem impossible. More problems creep in to make you stumble when your child is special needs.
As much as we try not to, A and I end up taking our frustrations out on each other at times. Both of us hate confrontation so have a habit of avoiding issues rather than addressing them. Communication can help with this. We're working on it so that we can clear things up before the frustrations with each other or the kids get out of control, leading to a fight. I always try to step back and see the situation from A's point of view and to let him know how I'm feeling when everything is building up so that the small problems don't become huge ones we can't overcome. We're not where we need to be yet, but we're getting there. What we are good at is making and sticking to choices we feel are best, no matter what others may say. We make a good team.
The Long and Short of ItWhat making marriage work when you have a special-needs child comes down to this: A commitment and love for each other to make life work, to do what you need to do to make it happen, and to get through the bad times so you can enjoy the good. The struggles make the good all that much sweeter. Focus on the good, get over the bad, and keep on living your lives together.
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